Maximus,
I love you so much. You are growing up so fast and I can't believe it. Right now you are obsessed with planets and the solar system. You can name all of the planets and dwarf planets from smallest to biggest and from distance to the sun. You wake up in the morning singing about planets. Every card or picture you draw is of the solar system (and very good, I might add). You even made the solar system out of pumpkins for your pumpkin decorating contest at school.
Planets aren't the only thing you are into though... you are also spiderman 50% of the time. You like to climb up our refrigerator, do handstands and kick off the wall, and where your spidey costume around all day shooting "webs" at us. It is so fun to watch you and see your innocence and zest for life.
Today was the coldest day of the season so far. You woke me up just before 5am because you had to go poop ;). Once I was up I decided to start getting ready for work. Even though our house was so cold from having the windows open last night, you decided to stay in our bathroom and sit on the cold tile floor so you could be close to me. I told you you could climb up in my bed or on the couch and keep warm but you insisted on being with me so there you sat with your ipad at 5am on the cold tile floor. It might not sound like a big thing but it was big to me. It made me feel very loved.
I love you so much my sweet boy. Everything about you is special.
-Mommy
Thursday, November 5, 2015
Tuesday, July 14, 2015
Giant Apology
Maximus,
I love you so much. You are growing up in so many ways. Just this past week you learned how to swim. It has been amazing. You had never done very well in water. Just two weeks ago you would cry whenever we would wash your hair in the bathtub and now you are able to swim across the pool, jump in and swim to the side, and get diving sticks from the bottom of the pool. You have been so brave and so excited about it. I love seeing you face your fears and gain confidence in yourself.
You start back to school in a couple of weeks. How are you already in your second year of preschool? I know I will cry again, but hopefully this year will be easier than last year :).
You continue to be such a sweet big brother to Titus. I am so grateful that he has you as a role model and big brother.
You are also a talker. Man are you a talker. You always have been, but for some reason lately it seems like you are talking 98% of your waking hours. And your favorite word? "Mom." Or more like "mom, mommy, mommy, MOMMMY, MOM!" I remember laughing at a commercial from a show called the Family Guy where the little boy did this over and over to his mom, only to say "hi," little did I know just how true that commercial was. Sometimes I get so frustrated with you for needing my constant attention. I literally cannot use the bathroom, read a piece of mail or finish a sentence when talking to daddy when you are awake because you always need my attention. Add your 18 month old little brother into the mix and 3 dogs who are always barking or scratching at the door, and I get a little crazy. Sometimes I take a "time out" where I go in my room for a few minutes to calm down. Sometimes I yell. But I always regret it when I realize that right now I am literally your best friend, and that's why you are always wanting me. Someday I will want that more than anything, so I need to appreciate it while I have it.
I hate to admit it, but I think sometimes I expect too much from you. You are very mature and wise for your age and so sometimes I lose track of how little you still are. And, ironically, I really want to keep you little as long as I can. But when I get stressed, I get easily frustrated, and sometimes I say things I don't mean.
Sometimes I ask you things like "what were you thinking?" ...and then I ask myself, "what are YOU thinking? He's only three." Sometimes I tuck you in at night and I leave your room feeling sad because I didn't get to play with you very much, or because I feel like I was too harsh on you when we did play. For example, a couple of nights ago I took you "scorpion hunting" at your request. It was late and I was stressed from work and things at home and I kept getting frustrated with you for stupid things like how you shined the blacklight on the wall. By the end of our little adventure, you seemed like you had lost interest and I was feeling guilty that I had ruined our special time together. Sometimes when I yell at you or when something like this happens, I apologize to you later. I don't expect you to understand, but I want you to know that even when I am mad, I still love you unconditionally. I want to teach you that even mommy makes mistakes and when I do I want to own up to it. Its amazing how forgiving and full of grace you are... Tonight I apologized to you and prayed to God that he will make me the mommy you deserve. Then you prayed to God and said, "and help me to be the best boy that my mommy deserves." Wow. I couldn't help but tear up at that one... but then only moments later you had me cracking up laughing again when you made some kind of joke. Its amazing how you do that to me.
So I guess this post is kind of a giant apology. I apologize for mistakes I have made so far and for mistakes I will make in the future. Please know that sometimes I overreact, or expect too much of you, or get justifiably mad when you do something wrong, but I still think the world of you. I still love you more than anything in the world.
I hope you and I are always close. Lately you have been saying things like "I just want to be with you forever," and "Even when I am a man, will you love me?" YES! YES! YES! I will always love you and I will always be with you.
XOXOX
MOMMY
I love you so much. You are growing up in so many ways. Just this past week you learned how to swim. It has been amazing. You had never done very well in water. Just two weeks ago you would cry whenever we would wash your hair in the bathtub and now you are able to swim across the pool, jump in and swim to the side, and get diving sticks from the bottom of the pool. You have been so brave and so excited about it. I love seeing you face your fears and gain confidence in yourself. You start back to school in a couple of weeks. How are you already in your second year of preschool? I know I will cry again, but hopefully this year will be easier than last year :).
You continue to be such a sweet big brother to Titus. I am so grateful that he has you as a role model and big brother.
You are also a talker. Man are you a talker. You always have been, but for some reason lately it seems like you are talking 98% of your waking hours. And your favorite word? "Mom." Or more like "mom, mommy, mommy, MOMMMY, MOM!" I remember laughing at a commercial from a show called the Family Guy where the little boy did this over and over to his mom, only to say "hi," little did I know just how true that commercial was. Sometimes I get so frustrated with you for needing my constant attention. I literally cannot use the bathroom, read a piece of mail or finish a sentence when talking to daddy when you are awake because you always need my attention. Add your 18 month old little brother into the mix and 3 dogs who are always barking or scratching at the door, and I get a little crazy. Sometimes I take a "time out" where I go in my room for a few minutes to calm down. Sometimes I yell. But I always regret it when I realize that right now I am literally your best friend, and that's why you are always wanting me. Someday I will want that more than anything, so I need to appreciate it while I have it.
I hate to admit it, but I think sometimes I expect too much from you. You are very mature and wise for your age and so sometimes I lose track of how little you still are. And, ironically, I really want to keep you little as long as I can. But when I get stressed, I get easily frustrated, and sometimes I say things I don't mean.
Sometimes I ask you things like "what were you thinking?" ...and then I ask myself, "what are YOU thinking? He's only three." Sometimes I tuck you in at night and I leave your room feeling sad because I didn't get to play with you very much, or because I feel like I was too harsh on you when we did play. For example, a couple of nights ago I took you "scorpion hunting" at your request. It was late and I was stressed from work and things at home and I kept getting frustrated with you for stupid things like how you shined the blacklight on the wall. By the end of our little adventure, you seemed like you had lost interest and I was feeling guilty that I had ruined our special time together. Sometimes when I yell at you or when something like this happens, I apologize to you later. I don't expect you to understand, but I want you to know that even when I am mad, I still love you unconditionally. I want to teach you that even mommy makes mistakes and when I do I want to own up to it. Its amazing how forgiving and full of grace you are... Tonight I apologized to you and prayed to God that he will make me the mommy you deserve. Then you prayed to God and said, "and help me to be the best boy that my mommy deserves." Wow. I couldn't help but tear up at that one... but then only moments later you had me cracking up laughing again when you made some kind of joke. Its amazing how you do that to me.
So I guess this post is kind of a giant apology. I apologize for mistakes I have made so far and for mistakes I will make in the future. Please know that sometimes I overreact, or expect too much of you, or get justifiably mad when you do something wrong, but I still think the world of you. I still love you more than anything in the world.
I hope you and I are always close. Lately you have been saying things like "I just want to be with you forever," and "Even when I am a man, will you love me?" YES! YES! YES! I will always love you and I will always be with you.
XOXOX
MOMMY
Saturday, March 28, 2015
Choo Choo Baby
Maximus,
You have been loving on your baby brother since before he was born. I absolutely love watching you with him. I don't know how it started but somehow you started showing your love for him by touching his cheek. When he was a newborn and you were 2 years old, everyone was a little nervous about it because you would stiffen your hand and grit your teeth and get an intense look on your face and then touch his cheek. Even though it looks kind of aggressive, you do it out of love and you are very gentle with him. You have continued to do that over the past year and it is so precious. We were at a birthday party the other day and you were having so much fun in the bounce house the whole night. Finally, you came to get a drink of water and as you ran back to the bounce house you stopped just to put your hand on Titus' face. Everyone at the party noticed and thought it was so sweet. Little did they know you do it all of the time. Usually when you do it you say "I just love you choo choo baby." I have no idea where you even got that nickname, but it is now what we call Titus. As he is growing up you are getting closer and closer. He watches everything you do and laughs because you are so funny. I am so glad he has you as his big brother role model.
I love you so much.
I love you so much.
Saturday, February 21, 2015
I Hope You Will Sing
My love,
From the day I found out I was pregnant with you I started singing all of the time. When you were born I put everything into a song and you loved it. When we drove in the car one of the only ways I could keep you from screaming was to sing the whole time. We sang songs every night before bed. Sometime after you turned 1 you started singing along with me. You would amaze us with your ability to memorize entire songs at such an early age. As you've grown, your love for music has continued to grow and it has been such a joy to me to be able to listen to you sing. Almost every night you turn your music on in your room and dance before bed. Then you listen to the rest of the CD while you sleep. Most nights at some point I hear you singing in your room through the monitor. Sometimes you sing worship songs, sometimes pop songs, sometimes kiddie songs. It is the sweetest sound and always makes me smile, even if it is at 2am!
I think you will always love music. It seems to be a part of you. I hope you will always sing. I hope that you will one day sing to your wife. I already pray for her now. She will be so incredibly blessed and I hope she will realize that. Most women will say that one of the most romantic things a guy can do for them is to sing. You have such a beautiful voice and I hope you will continue to always love blessing people with it.
Love always,
Mommy
From the day I found out I was pregnant with you I started singing all of the time. When you were born I put everything into a song and you loved it. When we drove in the car one of the only ways I could keep you from screaming was to sing the whole time. We sang songs every night before bed. Sometime after you turned 1 you started singing along with me. You would amaze us with your ability to memorize entire songs at such an early age. As you've grown, your love for music has continued to grow and it has been such a joy to me to be able to listen to you sing. Almost every night you turn your music on in your room and dance before bed. Then you listen to the rest of the CD while you sleep. Most nights at some point I hear you singing in your room through the monitor. Sometimes you sing worship songs, sometimes pop songs, sometimes kiddie songs. It is the sweetest sound and always makes me smile, even if it is at 2am!
I think you will always love music. It seems to be a part of you. I hope you will always sing. I hope that you will one day sing to your wife. I already pray for her now. She will be so incredibly blessed and I hope she will realize that. Most women will say that one of the most romantic things a guy can do for them is to sing. You have such a beautiful voice and I hope you will continue to always love blessing people with it.
Love always,
Mommy
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