Maximus,
It is December, 2013 and life is busy as usual. More so, in fact, because it is Christmas time and your baby brother is due in one month so we have been hectically trying to prepare everything. In the midst of all the hustle and bustle, though, God has blessed me with some very sweet and intimate moments with you. This past Saturday was one example of that. We woke up and had breakfast and started carrying out our daily activities as usual. You were busy playing "rapid-fire soccer" in the living room- a game you and daddy made up that you spend most of the day playing, I was cleaning in the kitchen, and daddy went to run an errand. Then you came in and wanted me to hold you. You asked me to turn on music in the kitchen, which we do a lot. Then we started dancing. You sat on my big pregnant belly and laid your head on my shoulder. I thought this would be a brief, sweet moment and tried my best to soak it up, because usually I only get a few minutes with you where you want to be held and cuddled. But on that day, you just let the music keep playing and you stayed in my arms. We slow danced, fast danced, sang along with the songs and I just kept telling you how much I love you. For over 30 minutes we did that and I cherished every moment.
What makes moments like that so special is the reality that soon they will be even more rare. I guess if I have one fear about your baby brother coming it is that you will somehow feel like I love you less because I won't get to give you as much personal attention. Since you have been born I have put you to bed almost every single night. I have always been the one to give you baths and to come hold you in the middle of the night if you wake up crying, and on my days off you and I spend a lot of time playing together. Soon some of those things will change and I know I won't be as available as I want to be for you. I just hope that you don't interpret that as me loving you any less. When your brother comes we will all be in transition but I know it will lead to even more joy and love than we are already blessed with. I can't even imagine it, and I will do everything in my power to show you that my love is growing, not splitting.
I love you my sweet boy. Thank you for the precious moments we spend together.
-Mommy
